Headaches

It's interesting to me how much pressure I put on myself when choosing things to write about. It's like I'm telling myself that my other thoughts aren't important enough to be read by...well, only me. Which is even more ridiculous. Anyways, I have a headache...again. I think every day since high school I get a headache. Most of the time they are mild, annoying things but about 2/3 of the time they are fairly painful. Because I've had them so long, I've learned to just endure the pain and not take medicine but sometimes I just need to take something. I feel that people think taking so much medicine isn't good for me, but they don't have to feel the ache that I do. I'd told my doctor about it and she seems to think it's related to my jaw. It clicks a lot when I chew and I think there's an official name for it, but the repetition of doing that causes a headache. While I think that's what happens sometimes, a lot of the time I'm positive I didn't get a headache from that. I probably have a tumor or something. I've always secretly thought I did, but am too chicken to suggest it at the doctor. So my new apartment. I've been living there for a little over two months and it still doesn't quite feel like home yet. Plus I don't like that I don't know anyone in the area to hang out with or see randomly in a grocery store. I love that about Everett. I can go into any store or Starbucks, etc and usually see someone I know. Most of the time I find myself avoiding the person so I don't have to make small talk but I still enjoy knowing they're there. I know that I only really moved out here because it was close to work and Seattle, and I thought this might be my only chance to really live out here but i don't seem to be taking advantage of it like I thought I would. That's something I really need to work on. Like going to the SAM, seattle library, coffee shops, etc. Also, I don't have a lot of money to buy things that will make my apartment feel more comfy so that's been a little problem. I just have to buy a little at a time until I have the things I need. I just don't like having to wait!