26th birthday

Lately it's been kind of weird because I've become very aware of my singleness. It has never really bothered be before or I've never been one of those people who think about that sort of thing all day and night until they find someone, so it's interesting that I'm noticing it now. I guess maybe now that I've just turned 26 and am feeling older, I've been thinking about it more. I've been seeing people who are dating or married and thinking about how I can't wait to be in that place - I'm ready. In the past years I've always been open to the idea of being in a long-term relationship but it just hasn't happened. I don't like to put myself in strategic positions where I can talk to that person or just "happen" to see him in random places like the mall or coffee shop. I mean, I definitely notice guys and know I am attracted to a certain type of guy, but calling them and pursuing them isn't something I think is my job. I've always thought that if they were interested in who I am or at least in learning more about me, they would pursue me. I do pray for my future husband though. In high school, some kids from my youth group and some leaders went on a youth trip down to LA to a youth evangelism conference called "DCLA." There we were introduced to a new sister brother duo who was called "LaRue." Natalie and Phil became our new favorite musicians. We all felt a connection to their music and got a chance to talk to them personally and get photographs with them. They have a song called "Someday" and the lyrics read:

I don't know if you're near or far away But I know that I'm thinking of you today I don't know if I even know your name But I know that I'm praying for you just the same.

Someday we'll fall in love You'll be mine, and I will be yours Our hearts will be one And our love will ever endure

And I'll need you, and I'll want you And I'll find you someday Then I'll love you, then I'll hold you Then I'll be with you always

Our love will be so strong and pure You will make me feel like I have never felt before You will be perfect only for me You will make these eyes begin to see

Someday we'll fall in love You'll be mine and I will be yours Our hearts will be one And our love will ever endure

Your faith in the Lord will be strong Even though I know the wait it long And though I'm young I still believe That you're out there praying for me

So I believe that God will provide me with the right person in His time and I am a very patient person. I guess until that happens I will continue living the life God has blessed me. I think that God has me doing something that I would never be able to do if I were married. That might be lame but maybe...just maybe. :)