Secrets

“I have come to believe that by and large the human family all has the same secrets, which are both very telling and very important to tell. They are telling in the sense that they tell what is perhaps the central paradox of our condition- that what we hunger for perhaps more than anything else is to be known in our full humanness, and yet that is often just what we also fear more than anything else. It is important to tell at least from time to time the secret of who we truly and fully are- even if we tell it only to ourselves- because otherwise we run the risk of losing track of who we truly and fully are and little by little come to accept instead the highly edited version which we put forth in hope that the world will find it more acceptable than the real thing. It is important to tell our secrets too because it makes it easier that way to see where we have been in our lives and where we are going. It also makes it easier for other people to tell us a secret or two of their own and exchanges like that have a lot to do with what being a family is all about and what being a human is all about. Finally, I suspect that it is by entering that deep place inside us where are secrets are kept that we come perhaps closer than we do anywhere else to the One who, whether we realize it or not, is all of our secrets the most telling and the most precious we have to tell.“ - Fredrick Buechner

How He Loves Us

I never really wish I could sing like people, but i saw this on someone elses blog and as I was watching and getting goosebumps and appreciating God, I wished that I could sing like her. To be able to worship God like this. I know that He loves me the way I am and if He had wanted me to have a voice like that, He would have done so, but I still can't help my desires to be able to belt it out and sing.

LIttle Sister

Little Sister Hey little sister I heard you went to Mr. So and So, knock knock knockin on his door again last night, said you needed it bad- you know that ain't right 'Cause so many times you've come to me cry-crying trying to stop. you said it hurts so bad But please don't let you go back for more My little sister is a Zombie in a body with no soul in a role she has learned to play in a world today where nothing else matters but it matters, we gotta start feeding our souls Not our addiction or afflictions of pain to avoid the same questions we must ask ourselves to get any answers We gotta start feeding our souls have been lost to the millions with lots who feed on addiction selling pills and what's hot I wish I could save her from all their delusions all the confusion of of a nation that starves for salvation but clothing is the closest to approximation to God and He only knows that drugs are all we know of love Every day we starve while we eat white bread and beer instead of a hadshake or hug We spill the pills and sweep them under the rug My little sister is a Zombie in a body with no soul in a role she has learned to play in a world today where nothing else matters but it matters, we gotta start feeding our souls Hey little sister I heard you went to Mr. So and So's Knock, knock, knockin' on his door again last night Said you needed more

-Jewel

I was just listening to this song at work and it almost made me choke up. I have to start loving people more and start going out of my way to do so. Even if I don't want to sometimes.

Twilight

So, I didn't really have a lot of expectations for the film because of all of the disappointed fans reviewing it. I went with my friend Kai who has not read any of the books and it was really interesting during the film because I'd be sitting there groaning because of my disapointment with how they chose to represent something and Kai would be groaning in angst because of how good she thought the story was and she was hurting with the characters and events happening. A few of the scenes that I thought were special and important were downplayed and some of the scenes I found irrelevant to the telling of a good tale were amplified. Don't get me wrong, I enjoyed it also. AND AND AND Kai is now a fan. After the movie we went straight to Target to buy her a book so she could get started on the plane to Palm Springs tomorrow...I'm willing to bed she's already started reading since she got home. haha. :) So they did something right! PLUS, how beautiful is Washington? I mean, really. Although I will give credit to Oregon for offering their beautifulness to the movie too, even though they weren't really credited. I guess that's all on that. 

I'm going to bed because I'm exhausted and have to rest up for Thanksgiving.

Barack Obama, the President of the United States

living with my parents

Well, I don't have too long to write because I have to be at work in 20 minutes, but I've just started using the starbucks reward card and so I get up to two free hours on the internet for free. So I have decided to embrace this generosity and attempt to start blogging every morning. This will take place of me napping in the parking lot of Starbucks every morning. If i leave earlier from my house, traffic isn't so horrible. The only catch is that I get to Seattle about an hour before I start working. This is going to be great. :)

I've been living with my parents over the past week and I have this week as well until I officially move into my new apartment. And let me just tell you what I've learned over this past week: My parents and I were not meant to live together. :) I just cringe when they say things sometimes. I strongly dislike half the things they say or do so it's been frustrating having to hold in my negative words and attitude towards it. I know that it will cause nothing but arguments or hurt feelings. So instead I bite my lip and remove myself from the room. They are who they are I guess. It's funny how I didn't expect this. It shows me how much I've grown or changed even in the past year. Interesting. Ok, well I should head to work so I'm not late!

peace.